Today is one of those days when I have a hard time holding it in. My excitment, and my love, and everything just bubble up so much, I could explode.
And then I start to think…but everybody who knows me is going to think I’m SOOOOOOOOO weird.
Then again, the ship has already saild on that ocean. I am weird. I am. Always have been.
There are a lot of people who have known me over the years who were/are skeptical of my change in faith. Some people, because they just are naturally skeptical…others because their own belief systems don’t allow them to even consider that what I feel, or what I believe, is real. And even others who just can’t see anything in being Christian but restrictions, and reject it for their own freedoms.
But it works for me.
Every day, in little ways, God reveals to me that He is working in my life. That He is here, that He is listening, that He knows my needs. ANd the asnwer isn’t always yes on what I ask…but time after time over the last seven months, He has shown He will take care of me.
This morning, I woke up around 5:45. This is pretty normal for me, as Chloe generally has her first wake-up between 5:45 and 6:30. I make her a bottle and bring her into bed with us, to sleep until 7 or so. Well, at 5:45 this morning, having been up past 2 talking with Hubs, I kind of groaned and thought – there is NO WAY we are going to the 9:00 service. NO WAY. And I went back in forth in my head. I really wanted to make it to church today, but I was SOOOOOOOOO tired. So I decided I’d try and go back to sleep, and if I was awake in time to go to the 9:00 service, I’d go. If not, we’d shoot for the 11.
Well, I did fall back asleep, until I heard a knock on our bedroom door at 7. I figured it was Kelsey, knocking to see if we were getting up for church. It wasn’t Kelsey. In fact, it wasn’t ANYONE. There may not have even been a real knock- may have just been in my head. But that had me up in time for church. (Be skeptical if you wish, but I can’t help but think that was God making sure I had no excuses!)
I got to church, and it felt good to be there. We’ve missed several weeks, due to weather, and illness, and having to go out of town for a wedding. I will be honest and admit – we haven’t gone since before Christmas! (eeks.) I had decided months ago, when I bought a 1 year chronological Bible, that I would read through it this year. And then, since we got back from Minnesota, I haven’t picked my Bible up to do my daily readings. Well. Guess what?
My church is doing the SAME THING – the 1 year read through the Bible. And time and time again, the pastor today said – Hey – if you’ve gotten out of the habit and missed a week or two – jump right back in! (Hello? Message right to me, or what?) Anyway…I just felt so awesome when we left…Energized, and renewed, and full of love and happiness and excitement.
The funny thing is, the Pastor opened the service saying he felt pretty much that same way (so I guess it’s contagious), but I WILL NOT describe it the same way he did. (Trust me, you’ll be happy I left that out.)
And also? The icing on the cake? Schmoops told me while we were waiting for the service to start that she’s been praying for some of the same things I have – things that we’ve seen start happening in our life. And I can see, for her, she’s feeling God working in her life too. Seeing that, as a mom, is just so indescribable. It’s amazing. It’s almost like giving birth to her all over again, but I had this realization that our relationship is changing. We’re going beyond being Mother and Daughter to beings Sisters in Christ…and…that’s just…it feels wonderful.
SO…I’m just tickled today. I could not be happier. Ok, if God said yes on us winning the lottery, it would possibly increase my temporary enjoy-o-meter, but that’s pretty much unlikely to happen! LOL
Anyway – hope you’re all having a FANTABULOUS day. My mini-monster just woke up from her nap, so I am going to go crack the whip on the rest of the fam so we can go raid the bookstore. WOOHOO!